the last day of school~~~

at the beginning of last week, we were so excited for being leaving the hell (school)... 

evenually, it was not happy at all on the last day. imagine, people that u've been spend 5 or 3 years together, study together, hang together and go out together...

when it clicked, u came back from a USE TO world to GOOD BYE world...

we always think that things can be USE TO, but not now.... some people go to college, some people joined army and some people is about to get famous...

people that joined army, probably is ur last time to see them( hopefully is not), and people that is about to get famous, probably is ur last time to spoke to them, but as a friend, u will give 100% LUCK on them...

it always been hard to say good bye, to be honest, i will never make friend with GOOD BYE... it always a sad and unpleasent thing...

i still remember, when each time that i said good bye, i will ended up with TEARS...

well, sometimes is not fair in life, and what can u do about it??

such a weird dream~~~

erm... i already fancy him for 2 or 3 years...
and i still dont have the gut to talk to him~~~
i have no idea why i fancy him...  and the feeling is getting stronger and stronger each time...
to be honest we never spoken to each other before... we never say hi or hello to each other before (even i wanted to, but...) thewhole thing is just like `Love at first sight`.... but i never believe in those things...


ofcourse i really wanna to shout at u and say what i really think about you... but i also know that its all too late~~~ i had the chance but just me that dont have the gut to tell you...


well, go back to the 'dream'.... it was the strangest dream i've ever had...


the dream is about me and my 'crazy' friends sitting on a very nice and soft field ... and we sit seperate (dont ask me why, cause i have no idea) and there was him asking my friend where i was... and my friend pointed to me~~~ well, i didnt realiese in the dream but i know ... after, he ask me to go and talk to him and u know i was like yeah ok....


and there is another sence, and there is a river infront of us... he was like hi, and i was like hiya.... and he starting to talk to me but i cant remember... after he was like... i know u fancy me for a long time... i was silence and noded.... he said im sorry and i was like y... he say we cant be together but i love u.... my heart was like spliting in half... one half was happy and another was sad... happy because he told me he fancy me... sad because he said we cant be together...i was very confused... and he left... i suprise that i didnt cry in that dream but when i woke up .... my heart ia like pressing against my chest and its just like someone took ur heart out and squese it really hard and the put back in my body....


well, im glad that i wasnt upset at all... and even its just like that , i would love to talk to u even it's just a dream....

weird dream~~~

had a well weird dream last nite (accually the nite before)


it keep stucking in my mind... even before i go out with my family and friend, i will pray to god that i wouldnt see u in town~~~


i know i've put down... but when i think back, my heart will be like `sour` and butterflies in my stomach~~~ sometimes my tears is running down...


the dream is about FL go up to P and tell him how much she loves him and ask him out....P didnt say anyhing just hug FL.... when i turn around u appear infront of me and hug me, i was shock and my tears were running down (even u hava a broken arm)


to be honest, I'VE MOVED ON....
i've moved on a long time ago... is just fancy u was so hard...
tried so hard to talk to u and u walked away...
tried to forget u, u just stuck into my head....
sometimes i think u are very selfish, if u dont fancy me just let me go...


dont appear in my dream or around my head.... i'll just make me even harder to let go of u....


i just wanna to shout at u and say....

I AM IN LOVE WITH SOMEONE ELSE, THAT PERSON IS NOT U

when the time is gone, the chance is gone~~~

`when the time is gone, the chance is gone` i commented on michelle's blog~~~
because of somethings happened that similar to the thing that i've been through and i really regret about it~~~


i am so angry at myself because i wasnt brave enough to make a move and the time had gone....
even now i am brave enough but he's gone forever~~~


to be honest, i really think that michelle needs to make a move...
of course... i dont have a right to tell u what to do....
but i suggest u go for it...


i just want u to know....
if any things happenned, u want to talk to someone or u wanna to borrow a shoulder....

I'LL BE THERE FOR YA

the last day of chinese new year 2011

the last day of chinese new year is also danni's birthday and it's also six-form open evening~~~

it was fun at danni's party but i'm sorry danni that i have to leave early~~~
i ate a lot of stuff~~~
and kidda feel like pregnant (jokes)

after that michelle's mum and SIR pick us up to go to school...
michelle was so nervours because of some reason and i kidda looking forward to it as well..
the first stop that i went was travel and tourism, it sound so fun and so intresting and because of my languages, it's like a benefit for me~~~

the second stop was health and social care...
the person that go before me kept talking to the teacher and i waited for 15 minutes then finally she went~~~

the third stop i went to business study, there's a fit guy in there and it was FUN...

the fourth stop is psychology, the teacher said it so intresting and it really stuck in my mind, i think i'll probably take that... and it was unlucky because stupid GEORGE BUSBY was there... he pissed me off so much.... and he better not take that subject...

the last stop was art... i like art just not sure about take it for A-LEVEL....

michelle's mum and SIR gave me a live home...
and as soon as i walk in the door~~~
my mum said..............................................
OH... U LOOK FAT~~~`


thanks mum.... i replied~~~

love u really mummy~~~~