such a weird dream~~~

erm... i already fancy him for 2 or 3 years...
and i still dont have the gut to talk to him~~~
i have no idea why i fancy him...  and the feeling is getting stronger and stronger each time...
to be honest we never spoken to each other before... we never say hi or hello to each other before (even i wanted to, but...) thewhole thing is just like `Love at first sight`.... but i never believe in those things...


ofcourse i really wanna to shout at u and say what i really think about you... but i also know that its all too late~~~ i had the chance but just me that dont have the gut to tell you...


well, go back to the 'dream'.... it was the strangest dream i've ever had...


the dream is about me and my 'crazy' friends sitting on a very nice and soft field ... and we sit seperate (dont ask me why, cause i have no idea) and there was him asking my friend where i was... and my friend pointed to me~~~ well, i didnt realiese in the dream but i know ... after, he ask me to go and talk to him and u know i was like yeah ok....


and there is another sence, and there is a river infront of us... he was like hi, and i was like hiya.... and he starting to talk to me but i cant remember... after he was like... i know u fancy me for a long time... i was silence and noded.... he said im sorry and i was like y... he say we cant be together but i love u.... my heart was like spliting in half... one half was happy and another was sad... happy because he told me he fancy me... sad because he said we cant be together...i was very confused... and he left... i suprise that i didnt cry in that dream but when i woke up .... my heart ia like pressing against my chest and its just like someone took ur heart out and squese it really hard and the put back in my body....


well, im glad that i wasnt upset at all... and even its just like that , i would love to talk to u even it's just a dream....