STILL

yesterday night michelle went to mine for sleep over...
and we had a massive conversation about boy and relationship!!!
it was alright... just made me think that i never spoken to you but dont know how that i fancy u for a year...
i know that u might already forgotten me but STILL u r living in my heart...
sometimes i get upset that typing stuff about u on blog but i managed it...

today i went to town with michelle and marlon...
we went in to priors and we went into HMV, i saw someone's back look just like u... i thought that person was u... but when he turn around, i wasnt u... i kindda dissapointed but kindda happy in the same time...
dissapoined is because that person wasnt u...
happy is because i can see u another day but is kindda awkward and i think i might hid under the CD  or BOOKS...
dont know if it make sense but that is what i felt in HMV...

after that we went to marlon's house...
we had a great laugh about STUFF...
and had a great laugh about my teeth...
even michelle's jaw is hurting her...

and we got into a coversation about u...
marlon asked me how i feel if i found out that  have a girlfriend...
what i can say is~~~
is u r happy, i'm happy...
i cant be that girl but at least i can see u happy (even with another girl)
i'm not worry that she will upset u, i'm worry that she wouldnt bring u happyness...
i do very love u...
but it will just stay in my heart...
i'll never tell u, and i'll never forget u...
what i hope is maybe the next guy that i fancy can wash u away from my heart...
it's pain and it's hard, but i think i can stay where i am and not saying a word...
i trying to tell myself it wouldnt happen but my heart always on ur side...
even thou i cant tell u how much I LOVE U but all my love will be in here... right in my blog...